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Well, I'll tell you a bit about myself, Jeremy Stoeckle, so you can understand these meanings a little better. Here goes...It basically started with my mother and father. Unwillingly, he launched his rocket into space, when an alien invaded. That was soon named Jeremy. Basically, there wasn't supposed to be an invasion. That's how it started. So, my father basically used my mom as a 'prize wife'. He cheated on her, and since they got divorced I've only seen him three times in my whole life. And whenever i did see him, he was abusive with me. As for my mom, she lives in Tennessee. She lives with my little brother, who does not share the same dad as me. From when I was little to when I was 13, throughout the week, some days I'd live with my grandma and some with my mom. When I hit the 'teen years' my grandma started to try and control me. So, my mother and me stopped talking to her and my grandfather. But, it wasn't a better situation, because obviously my mother is my grandma's daughter with the same 'instincts'...To be controlling and manipulative. My mom and me didn't get along, so after any arguments and what not, violence, and opposition. So, i started running away, using drugs, and things of that sort. Which eventually put me into run-away shelters, mental hospitals, and juvenile facilities. That summer when I was 14, I was in a runaway shelter, and I decided I would never live with my mother again. My grandparents visited me there and offered to have me live with them. I was hesitant, but I eventually accepted their offer. By this time, I was on probation, and it was a bitch. Two weeks after living with my grandparents, she tried to control me and held the probation over my head like I was some kind of degenerate. I ran away once again, which led to 2 months in juvenile facilities. After this, I started high school 3 months late, while having an alcohol problem. Which, because of my probation, lead me to be put on a tether. My therapist suggested that I visit a clinic doctor. Then he said I had clinical depression and I had to be put on pills. For the rest of the year, I improved myself, got sober, and got more into music. In the summer of '02, my grandfather decided to divorce my grandmother. Which made me very disappointed, because he was my only male influence. A half-assed one, but it was still there. Meanwhile, my grandma unable to control her husband, started to control me again. When he moved out, life with grandma seemed unbearable. It was then when I decided to take up an offer I had received two years prior to live with my best friend Travis. So, here I am now. As for the girls, my first 'sexual experience' was at age 12. I started at a young age, which just got me into trouble. I now have AIDS, Herpes, Hepatitis, Jaundice, a urinal dysfunction, crabs, jizz-face, and severe sphincter problems. Hehe, I'm just kiddin' folks. None of those are present in/on my body. I never really had any good relationships. They all ended up with me getting hurt. Having sex with someone does NOT mean you love them, or vice versa. Sex is something you do with someone you love, but not the reason you love them. Now, I've found my little babydoll, Danielle, and it's almost a year, and I'm happier then ever. As for this band, I've wanted to be in a band since I was ten. I heard A.D.I.D.A.S. by my favorite band, KoRn. Travis and me had plans, but they didnt go as planned. I was actually gonna play guitar, but that would be like an anti-shit McDonalds...It just wouldn't happen. When I started going to high school. I met Mike Landy, who introduced me and Trav to John Porter. We tried to start a band, with various instrumentalists. I was always the singer, Travis on guitar and John on drums. A band with Mike didn't work out, so for awhile it was John, Trav, Dave Jaber, various bassists, and me. We didn't last that long. So, Trav, John, and me wrote Matron, Taking Me Over, Faceless, and Diluted with no bassist. Finally, John introduced us to his friend Joe Bagozzi, who ended up being totally sweet. We wrote song after song. We had all the tracks done except for Stain. Then, we started to consider Mike Landy coming back for a second guitarist. He stuck with us, and learned all the material. So, here we are now. As for me, my life is going' good. I'm clean, have great band, a beautiful girlfriend, and getting good grades. I live with my best friend travis and his family. And as for the song writing, even though I'm doing well, it's just easy for me to vent about past-happenings. A quote from Jon Davis on drugs and alcohol- "I've found a new respect for myself...I just need to realize that there is better things in life. Like, sex...and playing'."
Song-meanings
Broken Seed- It's pretty much about my father, and about his feelings about how he doesn't give a shit about me. Also, how he basically used my mom and stuff. The feelings i have about those situations...I wish I would lose them.
Faceless- This song is mostly about people that think they're better then everyone else because of their economic situation, what clothes they wear, or what 'clique' they're in. They put you down because you are not. Or you are different.. You can also look at it as a song about people being the same as everyone. They have no social identity, or these people that don't have any dreams or ambitions for anything. They won't make a difference or stand out. They're 'Faceless'.
Thorns- It is basically about my grandmother. How she was trying to control my life. And the way i thought about things, and that she was a hypocrite. She'd always call me a liar about the stupidest things, and she can't even admit that she was an alcoholic when I was younger.
Stain- My depression, and my built up anger is what this one's basically about. It takes over, and just puts me in a negative mood. Opposition in life does this to me too. It puts me in the same postition. Like a stain eating my soul.
Release- This one is about songwriting, and just music in general. How it's a 'release' for me and others. It's my favorite thing to do. So I thought I'd wirte a song about it. It's like sex for the soul. But no semen, just energy.
Leech- Again, it's my negative feelings about girls/ex-girlfriends. How I give, and give and nothing comes of it. The drain me of my love, my feelings, and my emotions. They 'suck me dry'
Symbiote- Well, Symbiote is about all of my parents (mother, father, and grandparents). And how growing up, watching them mimmicking their characteristics, and how they treated other people, including myself. Then realizing, now that I'm grown up, I have those same characteristics I hold onto them, and instead of hurting others, the only person that it hurts is me. By the way, a symbiote is a bio-organism. Like, two different people that can survie seperate, but come together to form something more prominent.
Links- Links is about me waking up one day and feeling all of the hatred and anger, and the whole 'not giving a shit about anything' attitude inside of me. Questioning life, and what it's all about. Then suggesting sarcastically "Aren't we chained to this world to suffer?". Like, is that all we do. "is that all I fucking do?" Then realizing all i have is this band, and Danielle, and how I'm linked by a unbreakable force to each of them.
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Glass- this song is about a dream I had of a friend. I dreamed she was a porcilian doll and her emotional and mental features were her outside characteristics. I thought it was a little creepy so I wrote about it.
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